Saturday, November 21, 2015

breathe //

I trip outside and down the road in a rush of adrenaline. 
The sky burns with a thousand shades of pink and orange and red sun, sketching silhouettes of thin, thick trees older than I am. 
I came to take pictures. I take them, looking on through a poor mirror of the image in an electronic screen.
Then I put it down.
It's quiet.
I breathe.
My eyes feel insufficient to take it all in. Colors smearing into each other to a dark blue. The moon shining a blurry, silver crescent hundreds of thousands of miles away. The field stretches to woods, full of thick grass and fox tails and wet dirt and weeds. A red light flashes above the heavy piled clouds on the horizon, a lone airplane headed east. Bats flitter by overhead. Crickets chirp. The sound of cars zooming by in the distance, always rushed, always hurried, always somewhere to be, late.
The sun has all but disappeared, sinking too fast in perfect time below the horizon, as it does everyday. Another sunset for someone else, another sunrise for another. A thick fog rises across the field, cloaking the ground and trees in a misty gray. The moon continues to rise, waiting patiently on the retreating light. 
The air is cool and wet. The night is dark. The clouds, dark and looming, pile higher, the fog steadily advancing. The flashing light of the airplane is nowhere to be seen, the small lives and beating hearts on board forgotten. My feet turn to walk home, my beating heart left behind, too busy feeling for the other confused, hurting hearts in this huge minuscule world.
We're so small and so lost and so loved. God is so close. Why do we resist him? "He will fight for you- you need only be still." 
I breathe.
//
I don't understand a lot lately, and I feel it. I know and control so very little. But this I know-
"I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth." 



28 comments:

  1. The sky is almost as beautiful as your writing, my dear <3

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    1. probably the smoothest compliment i've ever received^
      but really thank you so much. tears.

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  2. Words cannot describe how much I love this.
    "We're so small and so lost and so loved." I love that.

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    1. thanks mary shelley♥ tears 4ever. srsly makin me so emotional :')

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  3. Exquisite are your words. You are very talented and I am greatful I get to read your words!

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    1. oh my word you are so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU FOR READING THEM♥

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  4. ahsegkes OLIVA.

    OW.

    EVERY BIT OF ME CANNOT.

    DO.

    ANYTHING.

    so gorgeous my heart exploded *chokes on all the words*

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    1. THIS MADE MYY DAYYY BC THIS IS HOW I EXPRESS MYSELF^ THANK YOU THANK YOU x1000.

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  5. This is so descriptive, it made me feel like I was really there <3 You really have a way with words Olivia :)

    ~Noor

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    1. agh thank you so much that is such a huge compliment <3 :')

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  6. These words, these photos, this moment: yes. Thank you. I feel more than I know nowadays, too. And Exodus 14:14 is one of my favorite verses. This was a beautiful piece.

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    1. thank you erin :') your words mean so much to me <3

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  7. WHOA. OW. WHAT. I...can't even talk to you right now. SO MANY CHILLS LIKE OMG THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL. whaaaat? "I take them, looking on through a poor mirror of the image in an electronic screen." I love that comparison between actually looking at something vs taking a picture of it...such a difference and gah yes. THIS POST TOOK ME TO LITERALLY ANOTHER REALM. HOW DO YOU DO THAAAAAT??!!?! And the thing about the airplane gah. And basically through this whole post I was just like, "augh," "ugh." "ahhh." "ack." "gah." verbally out loud. Like IT HURT ME OUCH SO SHINNNNYYYYY. ♥ you are a freaking brilliant person.

    love,
    abbiee

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    1. reading this comment literally just had me on the floor dead.
      you are literally the best and gAHHH you're freaking amazing and you made me feel like thirty times better about my writing. idk if you heard me earlier but YOU'RE LITERALLY THE BEST. ♥♥♥

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  8. This is beautiful.... sometimes you just need that quiet time and stillness outside of everything that's going on in your life....

    And this: "I don't understand a lot lately, and I feel it. I know and control so very little. But this I know-

    "I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth."" is too gorgeous for words. ♡

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    1. yess you get me. it was so nice to just get away for a minute. <3
      thank you *tears* <3
      also, how do you do that heart like that???? haha i'm so technologically challenged ;)

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    2. Ooo! It's ALT and the number 3 on your keypad on the right of your keyboard! ♥♥ I wrote the other comment from my phone so it worked like an emojii but on the computer I use the ALT method. which I only know because I googled it. :p I'm also pretty technologically challenged.

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    3. OHH hahaha! thanks olivia♥♥♥ :p

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  9. i will breathe.
    sometimes, this is all that we have to do. stop, and breathe, and know that our Great and mighty God LIVES. He lives and loves us and makes the world around us beautiful <3

    my heart lives a little more when i read your posts, olivia darling ily (!!!) xxx

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    1. yessss so true. it's literally life giving ♥
      literally hugest compliment ever i'm crying YOU ARE A DARLING, darling. i probably love you more (!!!) xxx

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  10. Tagged you in something on my blog, you should have a look (:

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    1. again- you are too sweet ;) thank you so much for the tag! ah I'm so excited:)

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  11. how HOW how did you capture all the feelings of a magical summer night in ONE post? can i PLEASE have a fraction of your amazing skills at everything?? :) this post is so beautiful.
    elisabeth nailed it. my heart does feel life a little bit more every time i read one of your posts. you a brilliant genius, dear olivia <3

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    1. WHATTTT THANK YOU SO MUCHHHHH ASLDKFJ.
      you literally just like wow made me feel so good about myself and my writing. xD
      thank you lovely <3333333333333 that is the hugest compliment ugh ♥

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  12. close to tears because of this post, and these comment discussions. we humans need to support each other more.
    thank you for hurting for the lost, my love. i adore each and every one of your posts. they inspire me to live fuller.

    LOVE YOU

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    1. yes yes and yes. i love this little blogging community we have. so much uplifting and support ^-^
      oh my goodnesssss, evelyn, i don't even know what to say. thank you. literally so many tears:'''') i feel the exact same about each of your posts. eee thank you for being you ♥♥♥
      LOVE YOU TOO

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  13. Beautiful photos / words! Love this post!

    Katie / http://www.storiesandsnapshots.com

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    1. thanks so much katie!!!!! ^-^ excuse me while i go check out your blog- so glad you decided to stop by!!:)

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