Monday, August 31, 2015

3 kinds of friends i'm thankful for

from my party that i decided not to do a post on as it's been over a month. SORRY.

I just have a lot of feels. This might be a sentimental post guys. Sorry in advance.
Anyway, it's the last day of august and a lot of my people have been off to college for weeks. But this past weekend we all got together for the day and I just had too many feels today to not write this post even though I should be doing school, but anyway, let's get this started.
1// friends i can serve with
We woke up at 6:30, drove about an hour, and then served together for about 5 hours on a Saturday morning and it was the funnest Saturday morning I've had in a long time. By far. Granted by 1 o'clock our throats were coated in a layer of dust and our skin was scratched and bruised and we were covered in sweat and dirt and arms were sore from ripping up layers on layers of carpet, but it was just so rewarding and it made me unreasonably happy. 
2// friends i can do anything with
After serving, we crashed at one of our houses and almost fell asleep beside each other before the food was ready. We spent a ridiculous amount of time in the pool making whirlpools and shooting each other with water guns. We played basketball and tag on kids toys literally for hours. We ate popsicles, defied zip line speed limits, and shot each other with Star Wars Lego guns, sprawled out in the middle of the floor. We blasted music on the way home with the windows down waving at each other from the others cars and singing at the top of our lungs as the wind snatched our words away. We finally met at the church before all heading home and ended up staying talking and laughing far louder than acceptable, tears in our eyes, gasping for air, barefoot on the black asphalt as dusk fell slowly, too fast. I think we hugged each other goodbye 3 times when we knew we'd see each other the next morning.
3// friends i can be myself with
The ones you can sing the national anthem with, discuss favorite TV shows, and Tolkien theories with. The ones you can flop down on the couch with in an exhausted, comfortable silence. The ones who make ice breaker games okay. And the ones who make ripping up filthy carpet, prying at door trim, hauling old furniture, and killing several spiders in the process, the highlight of your week. the ones who end up becoming fam. *cue picture riding tricycles and scooters*

Anyway, what kind of friends are you guys thankful for? Or what kinds do you wish you had? And what kind do you want to be? On another note, trying to keep up to schedule on my posts- this school year has me thrown for a loop. Any tips? OH AND PS 50TH POST RIGHT HERE 🎉🎉🎉

Saturday, August 15, 2015

just friends

I went to class the next week & the next week & the next & I wondered what went wrong
I felt her eyes on the back of my head in class & had to bite my lip to keep from saying something
I hadn't seen her smile in weeks & I noticed the way her voice cracked when she spoke up in class
God knows I didn't need my glasses to notice the way her eyes lingered on mine for a second too long
from across a crowded hallway
& I think
          { but just friends don't look at each other like that }

ps guys tell me how you feel about posts like this: like random thoughts/inspired writing. I just jotted this down this afternoon inspired by a pinterest quote. so what are your favorite kind of posts: this or lifestyle or.. whatever else I post on here I don't even know. let me know pleeeease^-^

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

777 challenge

Okay guys this is actually ridiculous. So the lovely Abbie tagged me for this brilliant idea called the 777 challenge. So here's the idea: I share 7 lines from the 7th page of a book I've written and then tag 7 others to do the same. Absolutely in love with this challenge........ except for the part where I actually have to limit the number of lines I share. Like... could I do 77 lines?! I'm still majorly struggling with this. *80 years later* Okay. I've finally got it. Here we go guys. It's not my best, but...... yeah, it's just not my best.

Asa hadn't said a word since the speech. She knew though. And he knew that she knew. They just always knew. They always had. So, they stood there in silence, watching as people flooded out of the stone courtyard, returning to their mundane lives, with a new fire in their eyes, a young eager fire. A fire that had yet to be checked, to be tamed.
Nearly all of them had left, but she couldn't bring herself to turn and look at him. She knew exactly what he would look like. She didn't want to see the well concealed pain in his eyes, or the tightness of his neck and his jaw. It already hurt to feel the tenseness in his arm beside hers.
She almost let out a sigh of relief at the sound of her name screeched from across the courtyard.

Okay, so it's 8 lines. Whatever. This is from a fantasy novel work in progress, which I haven't actually worked on in months, entitled "flame & shadow". On the slim chance that you might happen to want to read more I have this chapter plus the three preceding ones posted up on! They're all very short and the whole thing is a little over ten minutes to read. Anyway, here's the link (and if you do go read it please tell meeeee ^-^):
Legitimately almost posted this without tagging anyone. Hmm. Not sure how many of you are actually writing books, but I'd love any extra writing from all of you: Abby, Elisabeth, Tane, Melinda, Corliss, Cally, Evelyn. Also making the late addition of Olivia, seeing as I've now discovered she had a figment. yay.^-^

In other news (apart from spending ridiculous amounts of time at the library), I passed my exam to enter community college. I went to the beach on a spontaneous day trip (see picture below). I watched one of my best friends give her testimony and be baptized. I read lots (but still not enough). I ate way too much chocolate- please blame this on all those beautiful people who gave it to me for my birthday. I have also succeeded in procrastinating the writing of my sweet 16 party post. *cringe* sorry guys. OH AND I GOT A LAPTOP. Speaking of which, I start school this monday. :/ :/ :/ :/  I'm trying to get pumped!!!!!! It's kind of working, but only when I use lots of exclamation marks!!!!!!!!!! Also I've also been bracing myself for all my baes leaving for college- way too many. Wait did I just use the word bae on here????????? Okay, maybe time to stop writing now. I thought I had a lot going on in my life but apparently not hahahahahha. my life.
Before I go though, any post ideas, guys???? I would really love some. I'm feeling torn between totally uninspired and inspired by too many things to actually sit down and write one of the things. thanks for reading my mess, you wonderful 30 followers xoxo

ps- please go read Annie's 777 challenge here because it's 777x better than mine and you need it in your life.

Friday, August 7, 2015


today was vibrant green and downcast gray. it was mist and rain and a cool bit of breeze.
and today i didn't do much. i woke up and i didn't shower or brush my hair or even wash my face. but i woke up and i slipped on a gray comfy sweatshirt and shorts and i went to a bright red target under a dark gray sky and i bought a creamy flowy lace top.
then i came home and stayed home. and ate one too many spoonfuls of cookie dough.
today i read. a little bit way too much. only till late this afternoon did i finally (achingly) put down my book and get up from the bed and step outside.
and it was quiet.
today i walked down our road, away from the containment of the house, under the overcast sky, trees rising up on the left, fields sprawling out on the right. it smelt of earth and rain and breeze. and somehow it felt green.
today i picked flowers and weeds. i clutched pine needles and foxtails and wildflowers in my hands.
i walked barefoot on the damp earth and the wet grass, soaking in the dew and the mist. solitude found me and i soaked it in.
today i left behind my phone and left behind my shoes.
today i didn't do much.
but you know what
i lived.

{ ps excuse the poor quality of the picture(if you click on it it's better). and the post. this is actually a completely rewritten version of the original post, which i accidentally deleted right after i finished writing it. so much sadness. this one didn't turn out quite as well because i was not as inspired and was trying to fight the frustration of trying to recreate the vibe of the post that i had written totally spur of the moment. anyway, sorry for rant. and the blogging break. i've been supremely uninspired and busy. and now i should probably start talking. ok i'm just gonna go...k bye }