Wednesday, February 23, 2022

like we were kids

We used to play orphans in the woods
Running home out of the cold
To soup, a fire in the hearth,
Mom waiting at the screen door
Dad pulling up in his truck
As the sun fell below the horizon

We used to run through the corn field
Stalks slapping our faces and bare arms
Breathing fast and quiet
Sweat slipping down our backs
Playing hide and seek 

We used to run, always running
Bare feet slapping the packed dirt
Knowing all the roots and rocks on the beaten path
Slipping on the early evening dew in summer
Asking for just five more minutes

We used to jump on the trampoline 
For hours in the freezing cold
Holes in our jeans at the knees
Wrestling and spraying each other 
With the hose in the heat

We used to jump across rows of hay bales
Climb the trees and cut them down
Swing from the tire swing
And do cartwheels across the yard
And take our blankets out in early spring
We used to swim in the muddy river 
And follow the flood of the hurricane
Back home through the woods
Where we'd play games
Designed to ruin our parents' furniture

We used to cram in the bed of Dad's truck
Sticking our heads out in the wind like dogs
Hair flying all in our open mouths, laughing
Bluegrass playing out the open windows

And I guess I'm just in a panic to get it all down
Because we all failed in different ways 

But everyday was so simple
And the anticipation of the next was visceral and excruciating 
And so clear when I think back

Like I just couldn't wait
Like we were just living
Like we were kids





 


 

Monday, February 14, 2022

a love poem for myself 2/14

I love that I'm the kind of person who laughs when I trip over my feet,
By myself or on a busy street
I like that I fought my mom on rules of dressing and acting "like a lady"
I love that I can't help but record when I see the sun on the water
I love that I don't cover up my face when I laugh anymore
I like that I touch all the comfy clothes when I pass them in the store
I love that I get happy about the morning light on our walls
I like that I overthink about how I make you feel
I love that I want to buy lego sets every time I see them
I love that I go out on the balcony to hold my coffee and look at the morning and listen
I love that I am myself
And I like that I am here



is this not sacred

If Jesus lived through years of his life working a carpenters job 
Sweating, getting splinters, dirty feet, and aching muscles, 
Bruised, thirsty and altogether unremarkable, the illegitimate son of––

If If If
Then––

Is this not sacred too?

Is this not holy war 
And faithful, fearful
Living before the face of God

This living
This body
This temple
This secret
This holy place

Here?
Are you sure?
Here?
You want to dwell—
With me?

What kind of god is
This?
That chooses to dwell
Holy
In the dirt
With the dust 
That betrayed him

To make a home 
Out of us

What is this sacred life?

This living
This breathing
This dying

This eating
This waking
This working
This sleeping

This human body 
To a never dying soul 

This is holy ground
Jesus walks here
Dwells here
Abides here
Makes all things new here

Is this the secret?
He is here