Saturday, May 9, 2020

thursday night

You play guitar and it sounds like it used to

But it’s not the same 

You play your records and you sit on your bed

And nothing is the same

You’re looking in the shadows for the light 

It weeps behind you as you scramble in the darkness of your own shadow

And it is not enough

You want to believe that it is enough

You want her to be enough

You just want to be enough 

And you want to believe so bad 

But your chest aches from the effort of it

And faith turns to dust in the face of the world

And you wonder what else is made of dust 

And wonder how long till you are

You try to remember the last time you weren’t lost

But the guitar sounds like rain on the roof

And the record sound prickles the air

And you can’t remember so you focus on these things

And so it goes

And goes

And goes

Until suddenly it doesn't

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Saturday, March 21, 2020

my soul knows it

your works are wonderful- 
in me, in my soul, in my body.

your works are wonderful-
in the way my hand holds this pen 
and the mess from my mind
spills onto this page.

your works are wonderful-
in the length of my legs
and the color of my eyes
and the thinness of my lips.

your works are wonderful- 
in how you led me to yourself
opened my eyes
and made me walk in the light.

your works are wonderful-
in my hands' caring for others 
in the tears I wish away
in the peace and unrest I carry with me at all times

your works are wonderful-
my soul knows it very well.

psalm 139:14.

Wednesday, September 18, 2019

look at me

and I will put my hope again
in things that have proven to fail me
and He'll remind me again
torn hands gentle on my face
look at Me

let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. hebrews 12:2.

for now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. 1 corinthians 13:12.