Friday, January 26, 2018

finished

why do the failures never end
why do I always think that it depends on me
why do I hide in my shame when You died that I might be free from it
why do I let myself think that it's in my power to reverse what You have called

"finished"

because even in my lowest acknowledgement of my depravity
if it keeps me from running to You it's still pride
thinking I can do it on my own 
or that there's anything in me that could mend the brokenness that I've caused
that I'm the exception

"He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all-"

no, not me
He didn't know how bad I would be
do I really think I know better than You?
any holding back from You is an insult to the sacrifice You made in order to have intimacy with me


"come to Me"

You say it again and again
and I come
only after staying away
stubborn and reluctant and unworthy
but, Jesus, I come
"let me only be a servant"
but no, You say
no, again and again

You patiently, faithfully, mercifully, lovingly,
remind me of the gospel I am so quick to forget

yes, I'm undeserving, a million times yes
but it's not about me

Your Son died on a cross with nails through His hands and feet
hammered in by my own soft, un-scarred ones
with a crown of thorns shoved down upon His head
woven by the faithless hands of His creation
He chose this that His worth, holiness, deserving
might be mine


"I will remember your sins no more"

oh, God, how soon I forget
how dare I suggest that Your life, love, death, and resurrection
is insufficient, not enough for me

help me to cast off the burdens 
You have already borne for me
this guilt and shame has already been paid for
this weight is not mine to shoulder

"you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear,
but the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out 'abba! father!'"

Father, help me to embrace who I am in You
a daughter with a greater inheritance of joy than I can imagine
more deeply known and loved than I can know

help me fall down on my knees before You
and rise up again in worship

help me give my life and my all for You
it's all for You

27 comments:

  1. HOLY HECK I'M CRYING BECAUSE DANG THIS IS IMPORTANT.

    Last year, I actually really struggled and forgot that when Jesus took on all our sin on the cross. He took on ALL OF IT. Not just the sins I've already committed and forgiven myself for, but the ones I haven't committed yet, and ones I still feel guilty and wonder how anyone could forgive me for. But He is so good to remind us of His furious love and wild mercy that covered everything already. <3

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    1. praISING THE LORD RN BC OF YOUR TESTIMONY.
      yes yES. He never ceases to amaze me. thank you so so much for sharing this :')

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  2. I always need to be reminded of this, Liv. Thanks.
    - Melinda

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  3. OMW, beautiful! I'm not surprised I'm crying, though! :)

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    1. Hahahaha, thank you so much!!!!! <3 <3 <3 your support means so much :')

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  4. I can relate most to the part you wrote under "come to me" I have troubles following but God is so great and forgiving no matter what is done he wants us to lean on him. My heart is touched. <3
    Simply Me

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  5. Your writing gets me everytime! You truly have a way with words xx Nikita

    BLOG//Jasmine Loves

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  6. Blessing my day. <3 <3 This message and your writing are both so inexpressibly beautiful.

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  7. YES this is so so important. To refuse his grace is to insult his character and doubt the sufficiency of Christ. I needed this reminder.

    Thankful for you and your words, liv Xx

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  8. The truth is so freeing! Thank you so much for sharing this Olivia, I ALWAYS need to be reminded of this, and it means so much right now! Wow. God is so amazing. Beautiful.
    Lydia

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  9. owowow my heart. love this more than words can express!

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  10. I don't even have words.

    ♥♥♥♥

    //megan

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  11. olivia...
    this was just what i needed today.
    the Lord works in wonderful ways like that, doesn't he?
    legit weeping over the truth and comfort of these words.
    thank you.
    xx
    mira

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  12. i
    am
    crying
    so
    hard
    wow.

    You. Your writing. Your words. AMAZING. Olivia... I have no words for you. Just, WOW. Praise you. Praise Him for you. Wowowow. (Thank you for writing this and allowing me to feel as though I am not alone. Thank YOU.)

    xx Kenzie

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  13. This is absolutely, amazingly beautiful. I don't think I've ever commented on here before, but you truly have a gift with words, Olivia! xx

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  14. romans 8 has to be one of my favourite-est chapters in the bible. it was the passage that i read one day and realised that the burden of guilt and condemnation was never mine to bear. He has taken this off me, an underserving proud heart, and all praise and glory and honour goes to Him.

    and this post??? i got goosebumps reading it; so raw, so honest, and such a poignant reminder. no words left to describe this. just a chorus of heart-felt "amens" from me.

    ahhhhh so much luv <3

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  15. no words, Olivia. no words.

    k.

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  16. wow. amen amen amen. my soul needed this. such a sweet and wonderful reminder that we can come to him. That he has forgotten all of our sins. how quickly we forget.
    "help me to cast off the burdens 
    You have already borne for me
    this guilt and shame has already been paid for
    this weight is not mine to shoulder"
    I need to read this every single day.
    We have such a beautiful reason to be joyful. As Christians we don't show it enough. wow. jesus. he is so so good and so faithful.
    thank you for leading others closer to Him. you are so talented.

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  17. Thank you!!! Your posts are always exactly what I need <3

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  18. man oh man oh man. this post is flowing with truth, and i love you for it.

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  19. thaNKING JESUS FOR YOU AND YOUR WORDS AND WOWZA
    golly are you talented or what???!?
    God truly blesses you with words that speak directly to your viewers, girl and im so thankful for you and this post. God's love is like no other, He is amazing, and He wants us and everyone to know it truly.
    LUF YOU MUCHS

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  20. Haven't read your blog in a looong time, and I came back and read this, and, oh yes. Yes yes yes. Love. (You described it.)

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  21. oH my gosh. yes. thank you for the truth.

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