Monday, January 8, 2018

maybe

and maybe the day will come when you have to say goodbye
to the memories that kept you up at 1 am smiling into your sheets
to the scrawled pages of your journal full of inadequate words
to the long list of music that he sent you over the years
to the laughter coming through the speaker on your phone
to the too long eye contact and the too long hugs and the too long looks from everyone around

and then he'll meet someone, and he'll be telling you about her like he always does
and suddenly you'll think "oh, wait. this is the one."
and you always knew it would happen, but not this soon
and it all happens so fast and you're too happy for words cause you see the way his eyes light up when he talks about her and how suddenly his words are the inadequate ones trying to describe her to you
but you're still so sad because you love the way he's smiling right now and how he says your name when he talks about something serious

and you'll be at his wedding and he'll give you a hug at the reception before they leave
and you'll be crying happy tears along with everyone else
they'll wave goodbye as they drive off and he'll be happy
but you'll say goodbye as they drive off barely moving your lips so that just a cloudy breath of air dissolves in the cold and it'll be over
and maybe you'll be just fine


73 comments:

  1. brb crying :"( this is so sad and good

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    1. brb crying bc i love ur comments and u :'')

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  2. OH MY GOODNESS, OLIVIA! This was SO SAD but I absolutely LOVED it <333

    - Maddy | littlebitofsunshineweb.blogspot.com

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    1. OH MY GOODNESS THANK YOU SO MUCH <3333333333333333333333 feelZ

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    2. Oh, and just in case you were interested in entering, I'm doing a giveaway on my blog.

      - Maddy | littlebitofsunshineweb.blogspot.com

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    3. yasssssssssssssssssssssss bless u maddy

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  3. Oh my gosh, so much emotion, this IS HEARTBREAKING AND LOVELY!! <3 <3

    ~Ivie
    iviewrites.blogspot.com

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    1. WOW THANKS I'm honored aslkfjslfkjdslk <3 <3 <3 thank you so much for reading!!!

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  4. *keels over with emotion* THIS IS SO HEARTBREAKING AND BEAUTIFUL ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!!! <3 <3

    Lilah
    lilahsmusicals.blogspot.com

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    1. UGH WHAT THIS IS THE SWEETEST COMMENT MY HEART THANK YOU LILAH <3333333

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  5. This piece is like dark chocolate. Its bittersweet but very fine and delicate. I think I use this word a lot when it comes to your writing. I love dark chocolate though!!

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    1. you're THE nicest vanessa thank you :''')

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    1. Same b/c of ur comment. Thank you SO much Mikayla.

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  7. This was really sweet and sad and ASLKDJHG I'm just a little puddle of feelings right now.

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    1. ASLKDFJSDLKFJSD. ME TOO. THANK YOU. CRYING. GAH. <3

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  8. Oh Olivia, how do you do it?? I.cant.take.it. I can FEEL this, oh man. In tears. Thank you.
    Lydia

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    1. OH MY WORDDD. LYDIA, WHAT. THIS COMMENT :'''''''''''''') ah THANK. YOU.

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  9. let me cry because selfless love breaks ur heart but it is so good!! and right!! and like I SEE THE PAIN (and i feel it so much amirite) BUT IT PRODUCES SO MANY GOOD THINGS!!! AHHH!!
    love this. yeppies. so much. x

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    1. yES SO MUCH OF THE GOODNESS. thank u thank u. XOXOXOXOXOXOXKSodfsodjf

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  10. Please excuse me while my heart is breaking into a million little pieces!

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    1. YOU'RE EXCUSED. LOLOL. your comments make my life. THANK YOU <3

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  11. OH MY WORD. This genuinely brought tears to my eyes. How is this so real.

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    1. OH MY WORD MY HEART <33333333 thank you hanne :''''''''''''')

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  12. oh, dear liv, this pierced my soul. you paint such vivid pictures of life and humanity, and i will always love reading your words.

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    1. u literally dont even know what this comment did 4 me
      <333333333333333333

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  13. That was amazing! I love it!
    Lily @ lilymaesday.blogspot.com

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  14. Wow that was breathtaking. Hauntingly beautiful. Heartbreaking really. "and maybe the day will come when you have to say goodbye
    to the memories that kept you up at 1 am smiling into your sheets
    to the scrawled pages of your journal full of inadequate words
    to the long list of music that he sent you over the years"
    gosh that sounds familiar.

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    1. IDK i might be crying, but thank you so much, lissa gah <3 <3 <3

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  15. it's fine i'm fine i didn't need my heart anyway

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    1. YA ME EITHER EVERYTHING'S FINE
      thank u so much for taking the time to read and comment :')

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  16. THE FEELS SO MANY FEELS. Olivia this was amazing!

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    1. wheres the crying emoji when i need it !!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH !!

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  17. aaaaa this is so gorgeous, it was definitely worth the heart break :') you are a masterpiece and this is a masterpiece.

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    1. wwwwwwwwwwwwwhat i am so flattered rn thank you times a million :') <3

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  18. oh wow. tears. this is seriously so raw and i can't. you're so good.

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    1. I literally read this again, today, and I still can't get over how good it is. seriously, I think I can relate to it because I could see something like this happening to me.
      such talent girlfriend. love love this.

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    2. mY HEART, LAUREN. goodness. thank you so, so much for your words. XX

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  19. Liv, this is absolutely beautiful! God has given you an exquisite gift of writing! :) Can't wait to see where He leads you!

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    1. Thank you so much, Faith!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 I love you so much :')

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  20. just rip my heart out and drive over it with a car how bout. then put it in reverse and drive over it again.

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    1. idk whether to say thank you or sorry or just, like, ok ???????????? HAHA i love u !!!!!

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  21. WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. *insert uncontrollable sobbing*

    Hailey
    www.haileyhudson.wordpress.com

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    1. wHAAAAAAAT I'M SO HONORED <333333333333333

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  22. how do you write my life bleg. so much love for ur beautiful heart. xx

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    1. would love to copy and paste ur comment and just send it right back atchu
      love xxxx

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  23. LIKE UGHHHHHH. xDDD Sometimes I wish you didn't write such awesome things that make my heart ache. xxxx

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    1. iM SORRY BUT ALSO HIGHLY FLATTERED HAHA thank u :') <3

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  24. This has got to be my favorite from you. Ahhh, the FEELS GIRL.

    k.

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    1. umMMMMMMMMMMM WOW. thank you so much, keira :') im so honored

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  25. I don't even have any guy friends and this still hit me in the feels. I forget what a genius of a writer you are until I come back to your blog and am like

    yes indeed, I'm online friends with a genius writer. xx

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    1. i am indeed also friend with a genius writer AND a genius comment-er and i am indeed aLSO CRYING

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  26. dude wow . . . this broke my soul and now i'm freaked out lol

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    1. dude, this comment is kind of everything LOL thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  27. oh my gosh..how have you spoken my fear so accurately?! currently in a kinda relationship and *gulp* never been this far ;)

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    1. ahhhhhhh I feel you <3 <3 sayin a little prayer for you rn!

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  28. Aggghh, this is so beautiful, but it hurts! This pretty much describes my current situation, so I came very close to getting teary-eyed. You have such a way with words, Olivia, and it's a delight to see (even if it's a little painful.) XD

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    1. Thank you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I'm so sorry <3

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  29. UMmmmMMmmmmMMMM
    YOU HIT ME SO HARD
    I FEEL THIS
    I TEARED UP A LITTLE MAYBE
    THANKS A LOT
    i friking love u olivia

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    1. ummMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMm
      i freaking love U !!!!!!!!1
      and this comMEnt~:KQ:W
      wOw thank u
      <3

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  30. OLIVIA.

    I AM CRYING.

    you are pure magic.

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    1. NO I AM CRYING
      YOU LAJSLFKSJDL ARE THE SWEETEST ANGEL

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  31. whoooaaaaaa. this. this this this. thank you for putting down these words and sharing them. <3

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    1. wHOA. dude. thank you so much. all the feels from this comment :')

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