Saturday, September 23, 2017

finally

We're walking towards the cars now. It's dark out, and the gravel crunches too loud underfoot. My keys jingle in my hand and I feel the space between us like electricity.
I look up at the stars for something to do. My nose feels cold, and I can barely see my breath rising in the starlight. When his face turns up from his feet out of the corner of my eye I have to fight the urge to look at him.
Really, I don't even have to look. I can see him now, face upturned, eyes far away, lips slightly parted, and his stupid jawline made more prominent from the angle. This is ridiculous. What's stopping you? I say to myself. It's one last night. I venture a glance in his direction, but to my surprise he's not looking at the stars.
He's looking at me.
I look away a little too fast.
We're at the cars, anyway, parked beside each other. It's about to be over.
"Man," he says, blowing a steam of breath out, hands shoved deep in his jacket pockets. "I don't wanna do this." His nose is a little red from the cold. Why does that have to be cute?
I try to pull off a laugh. It's usually so easy with him. "I know," is all I can manage. I wanna say something more, but there's nothing to say, or maybe too much left unsaid to go ahead and try to start now.
"OK, well," he lifts his hands out of his pockets, and I walk into his arms. They envelop me like so many times before. He's warm and steady and strong, and I don't wanna leave. "I'll see you later," he says, sounding muffled, his head above mine.
"Yeah," I say, trying to burn this in my memory, as I back away. "I'll write you."
"Yeah," he says, looking me in the eye with a little sad smile, running his hand through his hair. This is too hard. I'm turning to unlock my car door when he says it- "I'll miss you."
I pause for a second. Sometimes you mean some words so much that it's hard to get them out when you most need to. "I'll miss you, too." I'm jumbling with my keys now, still with my back turned to him.
"Hey," he says, and I can tell he's closer. I pause, and feel my shoulders sag, as I turn around. I look at him tired and in love and wonder if it looks as obvious as it feels. His eyes take in my whole face like he's trying to memorize it. He moves in closer between our cars till I can feel his warmth again. I feel his arms around my waist and the cold of my car door against my back. His face is so close; this feels like a dream, but he looks down into my eyes, and I see a hint of a smile on his face, like he's waited for this, as his own eyes drift down to my lips. His hand is at my cheek now, moving down to my jaw, cradling the back of my neck, his rough thumb gentle on my face. I'm smiling now, and I can't help it.
His eyes are on mine, and his lashes are so long. When he leans in and presses his lips against mine, it's like coming home.
Finally.
11:51pm. 9.16.17.

would like to clarify that this is, in fact, fiction lol

64 comments:

  1. This was beautiful. You capture emotion so well! Good thing you clarified it was fiction, because I thought it might be something that actually happened. But still, this is amazing!

    ~Ivie
    iviewrites.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you so much, Ivie!!!!!!!! HAHA, I was afraid that might be a problem XD THANKS FOR READING XO

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  2. This is so well done and GAH I LOVE IT

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    1. oh my gosh THANK YOU SO MUCH. lakjsdflksdjflk. <3 <3 <3

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  3. kHSAKLDJSALKFJLDJ JFJASDKLJASLKHFSKFHSHIEW,SNkhfklsadkajhdjbn.KLsjd


    I HAVE NO WORDS

    EVER
    FOREVER

    LIKE YOU'LL NEVER HEAR ME SPEAK AGAIN
    BECAUSE I HAVE NO WORDS


    <33333333333333333333333333333

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    1. YOU
      LITERALLY
      KILL
      ME

      OKAY NOT LITERALLY BUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
      YOUR COMMENTS ARE THE BEST THINGS EVER AND I LOVE YOU
      HOPE YOU CAN FIND IT IN YOU TO SPEAK AGAIN SOMEDAY :') LOLOL

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  4. ADORABLE. I REALLY WANT MORE, BUT ALSO, THAT'S NOT HOW THESE THINGS WORK.

    BUT I WANT MORE. XD

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    1. HAHAHA I FEEL YOU ON A SPIRITUAL LEVEL. MAYBE I'LL DO SOMETHING MORE WITH IT SOME DAY ???????????????????????????? IT MAKES ME HAPPY IT MADE YOU CARE ENOUGH TO WANT MORE THOUGH XD THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR COMMENTING <3 <3

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  5. THIS IS SO AMAZING. <33333333 Me loves your writing.

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    1. AKSDJFHSKDJ. Me loves your comments. ;)

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    2. NOOOOOO YOU DID NOT JUST KILL ME <3

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  6. OLIVIA!! This was SOOO well-written!! I want to read more!!!:):)

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    1. *wishes I had more where that came from to give you more* XD THANK YOU JASMINEE <3

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  7. *hysterical crying* PLEASE I MUST READ MORE
    YOU'RE MAKING OUR HEARTS THROB <333

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    1. IM CRYING YOU'RE THE SWEETEST HAHA <33333333333333
      I mean people keep demanding more sO IDK MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DO IT

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  8. THIS NEEDS TO BE PART OF A STORY LIKE RN. For crying out loud so sweet and well-done.

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    1. ok EVERYONE IS SAYING THAT I GUESS I HAVE TO GIVE THE PEOPLE WHAT THEY WANT????? is my blog a democracy or a monarchy lolol
      anyway your comment made my day so thank you :')

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  9. I'm crying. This is like the realest thing ever even if it's fiction. LIKE I COULD FEEEEEEL MY INSIDES ACHING AND I CAN'T EVEN. <3 <3 <3 I don't think you've ever posted anything that I didn't love <3
    xoxo
    Lizzy

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    1. I AM SCREAMING INSIDE. HAHA UGH your comments are always THE BEST THINGS EVER. MY HEART. <3 <3 Thank you to infinity and beyond that means sO MUCH XOXO

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    1. WOWOWOWOW THANK YOU TIMES A MILLION ABIGAIL <3

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  11. WOW WOW WOW. OLIVIA HOW DO YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL ALL THE FEELS.

    Hailey
    www.haileyhudson.wordpress.com

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    1. PROBS THE SAME WAY YOUR COMMENTS MAKE ME FEEL ALL THE FEELS???? SRSLY THANK YOU SO MUCH HAILEY :'D <3 <3 <3

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  12. I'M NOT CRYING

    NOPE

    NO CRYING HERE

    *sobs in a corner whilst rocking back and forth*

    WHY YOU DO THIS TO MEEEE??? Seriously. I HAVE *FEELS*. I'm squealing and smiling and shaking and crying. Do you know what that means, huh? You know what that means? I. AM. FANGIRLING.
    I need more. ASAP. Like, *makes grabby hands* gimme. Also; how are you so darn perfect? I want to know.

    Okay, but I'm also fangirling (if not harder) over the fact that MY BUTTON IS ON YOUR SIDEBAR?? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH AN HONOR?!?!?! *walks away, grumbling to self about your perfection* idk how she does it. i just... idk.

    Great job, girly. <3

    xx Kenzie

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    1. ok r u even freaking for real. WHO TRAINED YOU IN THE WAYS OF MAKING PEOPLES LIVES BETTER XD ITS LITERALLY LIKE MY DREAM TO HAVE PEOPLE FANGIRL OVER MY WRITING HAHAHA YOU'RE THE BEST
      also what a joke you deserve all the buttons on everyones sidebar ever. PLUS LIKE ITS PIZZA AND ITS CUTE AND ITS YOURS LIKE???? !!!! hahahaha, LOVE U!!!

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  13. THIS HURT WOW. OUCH. gotta be one of my favorites of your writings so far <3 <3 <3 <3

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    1. WOW FEELS I CAN'T EVEN THANK YOU SO MUCH aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh <3 <3 <3
      also ur name is beautiful

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  14. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!! ALKSJLSKDJFLSJFLKASJLF

    -Lia
    catholicgirlstuff.blogspot.com
    lilahsmusicals.blogspot.com

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    1. oh my goodness this is the greatest comment HAHAHA XD XD XD
      THANK YOU <33333333333333333

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  15. I may have fangirled a little bit.

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    1. Legit am fangirling over your comment rn. HAHA I CAN'T EVEN. THANK YOU <3333

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  16. *stands up and applauds*

    Actually misting up over here, this was so real. Dude, I seriously can't say enough good things about your writing, it always hits me right in the heart. Gosh! <3

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    1. you kill me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 gah THANK YOU SO MUCH ERIN. your comments mean the world!!!!!!!

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  17. HOW ARE YOUR WORDS ACTUALLY PURE MAGIC?!?!?!?!?!

    Like every time I read something of yours, I'm just kind of in awe over how perfect it is. Your writing blows me away I can't. :''''''') <3

    EXCUSE ME WHILE I GO CRY

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    1. ALKDFJSDLKFJDSKLFJD./
      !!!!!!!!!!!!
      I can't even handle you at all. LOL THANK YOU TIMES 8 MILLION. I LOVE YOU.

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  18. I live vicariously through your words. Please write a novel!!!!

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    1. wow goals!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M HONORED.
      i need to get my life together and do it
      luv u

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  19. Dangit I thought it wasn't fiction. :-P You're like the best writer I know of.

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    1. HAHAHAHA DO I LAUGH OR CRY ;) :') AH THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME THANK YOU <3 <3

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  20. Oh my *swoons* IT'S STUFF LIKE THIS THAT REMINDS ME I ACTUALLY AM A HOPELESS ROMANTIC. *proceeds to grin like a dork for the rest of the day*

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    1. HAHAHHAHAHAHA oh my gosh this is the best comment ever XD
      THANK YOU SO MUCH HANNAH <3

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    1. WUT OH MY GOSH you're gonna make ME cry :')))))))))))))))))
      Thank you so much, Hannah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

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  22. This is POIGNANT (one of my favourite words to use when describing lit ... one that I save in my back pocket for the truly special pieces of art!) Loving this ... thought for sure it must be reality since you wrote it so well. :)

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    1. Oh my goodness, thank you so much, Olivia :''''))))))) That means so much ahhhhhh <3 <3

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  23. OMG THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL AHH. I tell myself I don't like romantic stuff but then I read things like this and I'm like the biggest romantic the world has ever had. YOU HAVE SUCH A GIFT WITH WORDS OLIVIA

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    1. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
      why am i even getting compliments from the writing queen what is my life
      THANK YOU SO FREAKIN MUCH I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU <333333

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  24. *smiles smugly at all these completely deserved comments* you already know I love this piece and also I echo all the sentiments above, inarticulate fan-girl language though they may be. You're one of the best writers I've read, let alone know. it's a good thing you have the disclaimer there because you write so wholeheartedly that you might as well be writing it as it's happening. ok this is way more complimenting than I usually do so *salutes and does finger guns* Xx nina

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    1. oh my gosh nina i've just been sitting here AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY
      MY HEART!!!!!! literally can't even thank you enough for this and juST EVERYTHING WOW THANK YOU SO MUCH <3 <3 <3

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  25. NO, JUST NO LIKE WOW THIS IS SO GOOD WHAT EVEN
    i legit thought this was real bc youre so GOOD AT WRITING and it made me grin like an idiot and i read it three times in a row ok? ok bye now ill go sit in a corner and cry

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    1. WHATTTTTTTTTT THIS COMMENT MADE MY DAY now you've got me grinning like an idiot gEEZ :') thank you so much ahhhhhhhh <3 <3 <3 crying

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  26. Such a beautiful piece, I can't wait to read more of your work! Following you on GFC :D xx

    elizabeth ♡ ”Ice Cream” whispers Clara
    (I would love to follow each other on bloglovin if you like! :D)

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    1. YOU ARE SO SWEET ELIZABETH WOW THANK YOU :') AND YESS I TOTALLY DID

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  27. Oh. My gawd.

    Chills. I got fricking chills.
    This is art. Thank you for sharing it with me.

    xo,
    Han

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    1. WHAT asldkfjhs;ldifjh;iwsjf;oisdajf;isjf;iewjhorifhjweihjf
      THIS COMMENT THOUGH.
      woW oK THANK YOU so much

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  28. ACK I AM DECEASED
    this has killed me

    (also i love how you clarified that in the end bahahaha you r hilarious)

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    1. WOW IM SO SORRY PLS FORGIVE ME LOLOL
      hahahahahha thank u thank u

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  29. AHHHH BLESS ME ETERNALLY!!!!! That was the most beautiful thing that I have EVER READ!!!!!! You captured ever piece of emotion and made me feel as if I were there. You have a true gift my friend. A true gift. Brb I need to cry. <3
    -Marygrace

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    1. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <# I CRAI THANK YOU SO MUCH MARY GRACE :'D

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  30. DAMN YOU'RE SO TALENTED OLIVIA!!!

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    1. wOW THANK YOU SO MUCH SARA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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