Sunday, June 12, 2016

ordinary day

in case you were wondering what I do while working at the library everyday THIS IS WHAT I'M DOING EVERYDAY. dreaming about this actually happening. and psh no of course I'm not in love what are you saying.



it was any other ordinary day
I walked into the library in the back entrance in the early morning light and the fresh air after rain
to quiet nods and good mornings and tossed my keys and bag gently into my locker
wheeled the cart full of books to the right out of the back, into the elevator, and up to the next floor
I’d already been in my routine for a while before I saw you
or rather I subtly sensed or heard or felt you, I’m not sure which one was first
maybe it was the creaking of the old wooden floors beneath your feet
or a breath of air brushing imperceptibly past your lips
or a careful scuffing through the rows on rows of books
maybe it was the touch of your eyes when my back was turned
but my first sight of you was through the shelves of books
just a glimpse of a pair of hands
strong and tanned and rifling through my books without infringing
what a better combination than well-muscled hands and a well-read mind I thought
and then felt like hitting myself cause I felt like I was already falling
and cause I’m such a wishful thinker when I don’t want to be and such a cynic when I don’t want to be
I kept returning the books to their homes on the shelves
embarrassingly aware of his presence on the other side of the row
and living in anticipation of the point when I’d have to put a book away on the same row in which he stood
until
as I reached to tuck a thick novel in between it’s two neighbors on the highest shelf
he entered the corner of my vision, neck bent over and brows furrowed in complete concentration on the book in hand
I focused much too single-mindedly on the task at hand
as he looked up from the back of the book, his eyes searching aimlessly
till they found me
I determinedly avoided them focusing on the way the light played with the dust failing to settle on my books, the way my ring was twisted too far to the left, how I needed to cut my nails
I felt the movement of you turning down the aisle and remember turning towards you much too vividly
tucking my hair behind my ear self-consciously
everything was sharp and clear to perfection at the same time surrounded by a haze
I remember a thousand things that I noticed in that first glance
the soft dark unconcerned hair
the firm jawline
your eyes were all the colors of the ocean
slightly bleary from morning and framed by thick lashes
your skin was the shade of a working man
and was that a spray of freckles across your nose?
your eyes widened fractionally as I turned, as if taken slightly off guard
my heart fluttered annoyingly. was this stuff not just for, like, YA fiction or something?
you bit your lip self-consciously and asked politely did I work here
I responded with a smile and didn’t remember what I said
you asked something about a book on military history,
moving closer to show me the author’s name on the book in your hardened hands
“it was written by this same guy, but I didn’t see it over there”
“what did you say the title was, again?” I said, moving towards the computer, even though I knew he hadn’t
he told me, laughing a little at the drama of the name
I wanted to turn and look at you but I was facing the computer and you were behind me
I wanted to see what you looked like when you laughed
I typed it into the search engine, my hands a little too flighty, 
and sought it out for him in the new arrival section, explaining his mistake to him
he apologized and I tripped over my words in an effort to relieve him
“oh, no problem, don’t worry about it- it happens to me all the time”
you actually looked slightly amused by this as I handed the book over to you
“does it?” I hesitated and you laughed and this time I saw
your face light up and sunshine pour out
and your slightly crooked, imperfect smile
“well, I kind of work here, so I’ve kind of gotten used to it, but it used it to happen to me all the time. so don’t feel bad- I know how you feel.”
you laughed some more at this and looked me in the eye. “well, good I feel better now” you say, still looking me in the eye.
“good” I reply with a smile playing on my lips and I can’t stop it
then you say thanks and I say no problem
and in my mind I think
I like you

12:45 am

80 comments:

  1. khdgjcyivhkvhkkchkc

    Ohhh my goshhhhhh whaaat

    Your writing is perfect and this is SO DANG <3

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    1. KATE. flsnakabdkqsidnwlsndjwk. that means so much coming from you like you don't even know. :')

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  2. Ahdmwjqhflalfhzbsmalkrjfkalqkrfkck

    OLIVIA I JUST CRIED. REAL TEARS.

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    1. MARY SHELLEY REID I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WOW my heart = so full

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  3. PERFECTION! AKSHERKJSKERJS! THIS IS SO SWEET!!

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    1. CLARA STOP <3 (jk don't) THANK YOU SO MUCH.

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  4. pls tell me u met a guy + r gonna marry him pls pls pls (also that hands line hit me hard...like HOW DID U JUST DESCRIBE EVERYTHING PERFECTLY MAN)

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    1. lol i wish lol. RIGHT??? the hands are so important so glad you understand omw. ugh THANK UUU.

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  5. ASHGFLKLJHSKLFH

    THIS

    THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL

    I DEEM THIS PIECE PERFECTION

    *confetti* *balloons* *waffles* *herald angels sing*

    AAAAAHHH


    Katie katieconfetti.blogspot.com

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    1. *FLAILS EVERYWHERE*
      KATTTIIIIIEEEEe AHAHAHA "herald angels singing" this is making me laugh/cry tears of joy THANK YOU

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  6. *squeals* *fangirls over your adorable writing* *cant wait for more*

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    1. avaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lskdfjsldkjflsd !!!
      ^ how i feel because your writing is so incredible and you're complimenting mine ah <3

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  7. Ack this is awesome
    1) I want to work at the library
    2) that guy sounds perf

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    1. I WISH YOU COULD WORK AT MINE GAH <3
      also thank you i can't say i disagree hahaha

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    2. This is my most favorite thing ever
      At first I thought this was like real and I was shipping REAL hard..... Then I realized it wasn't but I still ship ⛵️⛵️

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    3. Dude
      Thank you to infinity and beyond
      HAHA YES. PLEASE STILL SHIP IT. MAYBE THEN IT'LL HAPPEN ? ;D

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  8. Wow, don't I have this bookstore/library fantasy every day of my life. Thank you for bringing it to life! This could be a book. I want to know more!!

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    1. YAY SO GLAD YOU CAN RELATE, ERIN. And thank you so much- that is such a huge compliment :''''''''''''''''''') OK I WANNA WRITE MORE TOO MAYBE I WILL.

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  9. *sniff* I got the feels here Olivia.. *runs to library website to see if they're hiring* *sighs* nope, nothing.

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    1. I know same. Mine does have a volunteer spot........ Mer I want that spot!!!!!!!!
      Ahshahwhsbshs 😍

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    2. THANK YOU JULIA. my goal = to give people all the feels. *cries a lot* WISH YOU BOTH COULD WORK AT MINEEEEEEE. imagine buddy blogger/librarians ^-^

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  10. shipping it like a UPS package. THIS BOY IS TOTALLY ADORABLE AND I AM CRYING. I'M A BABY. QAEWHAWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. <3

    (...is it bad of me to almost assume the guy was a book for a minute? XD i totally considered the possibility and as i read on, figured out that it wouldn't work. XD)

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    1. ALJFLISDJUSDOIFUSDAOIFJUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSDLIIIIIIIIIIIIIDSKfjkd LBKASKJBLAH. there is way too much love for you happening rn.
      ( AHAHHAHAAH NO no that's actually the greatest thing I've ever heard XD )

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  11. ^Shipping it like a UPS package XD Yes.

    I hope you know how crushed I am that this is fictional bc this is perfect help.

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    1. YES. people who know what shipping is are my kind of people.
      SAME.
      SAME.
      SAME.
      </3

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  12. HOW IS THIS NOT REAL YOU SOUND SO SMITTEN

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    1. I THINK THIS IS MY FAVORITE COMMENT I LOVE YOU

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  13. OH MY GOODNESSSSSSSSS like WHY IS THIS PERFECTION ACTUALLY WRITTEN DOWN. This would so be me working at a library. and the hands thing. oh golly. Wow. Like I don't usually fan-girl but I am right now.

    Plus its just written so darn well like how. it sounds like how this would really go, no stupid unrealism like in a YA novel;) like your thoughts, the mannerisms- everything. Ugh. Love.

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    1. oh my goodness gracious nina. THANK YOU TIMES A MILLION. GAH. honored that you would fangirl over my words :'))))

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  14. *snickers* Okay so you just made like A BUNCH of teenage girls swoon. XD (I can tell this by the above comments.) I figured you need at least ONE dude's feedback, right? (*cough* don't answer that XD)

    my feedback = you are a warrior poet (also so lucky I've wanted to work at the library)

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    1. HAHA NO DUDE. GIVE ME ALL YOUR FEEDBACK PLEASE. guys are scarce found to give feedback in the blogger world hahaha
      gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh thank you so much flskfdj. how do I words. THANK YOU.

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  15. I LOVE THIS! Haha the comment above me... I am another person swooning. :) Love you're writing Olivia!

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    1. HAHAHA, so accurate XD thank you, Vanessa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you're so sweet <3

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  16. what the even

    your writing

    no words

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  17. Wow, that was beautiful Olivia! How terribly romantic, utterly ;)

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    1. I thought so too- HAHA. thanks a bunch ^-^ ♥

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  18. HONEY CHILD WOMAN. WHOA WQHAAAAASDFGHJKHFGN STAHHP STAHP NO I CAN'T WAINFDKBSAHDJALF D I CAN'T HANDLE THIS BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTY. WHAAAAAAAAAAAT <3 LIKE HOW??????????????????????

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  19. I AM UNASHAMEDLY SPAMMING YOU TO KINGDOM COME BECAUSE I NEED TO COLLECT MY BRAINS (LIKE ALSO MY HEART WHO AM I KIDDING) AND THINK OF AN ARTISTIC WAY TO SAY


    THIS IS STUNNING. <3

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  20. :''''''''''''''''''''''')


    i kno i'm so artistic wow

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    1. WHAT DO I EVEN SAY TO YOU
      MY HEART IS OVERFLOWING HALP
      YOU SPEAK MY LOVE LANGUAGE AKA :''''''''''''''''''''''''''''') / LSKDJFLSDKJFLSDK
      THANKYOUTAHNYOUSFJNSLKDFJK THANKS BABE X

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  21. Sdjlfkjisht lkjsldiylsidygkweryyuhbcvbnjbdhjhjdfjhlajkjksdflkaakjsdfhj dOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH MY GOSH. MY HEART. THIS.
    GAAAAHHHH.
    *dies*
    I have no words. This is life. This is beautiful. I can't EVEN.
    *dies again*

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    1. SAMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
      lskjfdlksdj sldkfjldskjf lksdjfksdj
      THANK YOU I HAVE NO WORDS THANK YOU SO MUCH AHHHHH
      <3 <3 <3

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  22. HEEEHEEHEEEHEEEHEEE I couldn't stop softly laughing as I read this! It's so, um, cute/romantic/sweet. :D

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    1. AW MAGGIE. that is literally the sweetest thing ever and now I can't stop smiling while typing this AHAHA thank youuu ^-^

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  23. THIS. I CAN'T. IT'S SO SWEET AND ADORABLE.

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    1. YOU. I CAN'T. SO SWEET AND ADORABLE.
      THANK YOU BUNCHES AND BUNCHES <3

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    2. Hey I nominated you for the Music Tag btw! Check it out if you're interested: http://quillsandcurtsies.blogspot.com/2016/06/the-music-tag.html

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  24. ASGDDGHGZJGFZ I THINK BLOGGER ATE MY COMMENT?? IDL BUT WOWZERS.
    1) A GUY COMMENTED ON THIS POST DUDE YOU SHOULF BE FEELIN PROUD.
    2) i'll stop talking in all caps.
    3)SCRAP IT. THIS IS SOOO CUTE THAT LIBRARY SOUNDS LIKE A LITTLE HAVEN AND GAHHHH I BET HE'LL SHOW UP AGAIN. bc olivia is perfection obviously ❤

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    1. 1) RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT. I AM FEELIN PROUD.
      2) LOL NO
      3) DUDE IT IS GAHHHH. IF HE WAS REALLLLLLLLLLLLL. and dude glkfjlsdkjf YOU ARE SO NICE TO ME THANK YOU SO MUCH OH MY STARS <3

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  25. /was this stuff not just for, like, YA fiction or something?/

    Girl, you described a lightning crush like nobody's business! I could see it, smell it, feel it like I too worked at a library (which is SO COOL THAT I CAN'T EVEN!). It makes me feel like exploring the world again, falling in love with a well-read man, and then discovering that life isn't so different from a book after all. Only life is written by the greatest Author ever, and we are IN THE STORY.

    Lovely, exquisite writing, my dear. I loved every bit of it.

    12:33 a.m.

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    1. AH HANNAH. WOW YES TO EVERYTHING YOU SAID AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS :') YOU ARE THE SWEETEST.

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  26. Gleeps Gleeps Gleeps

    Give me my heart back please!! LOVE this. I used to work at a library and you just revived all of my daydreams like wow :) this is so happy + wonderful.

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    1. AH YOU DID?! WE ARE ACTUAL TWINS NOW. and wow thank you so much that is such a huge compliment :') flkd THANK YOU.

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  27. THIS IS PRECIOUS OMG. I WAS SMILING THE WHOLE TIME I ALMOST BURST INTO TEARS. Also, your writing is so beautiful (I got goosebumps about three times lol). LOVE THIS ♡

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    1. THIS MAKES ME THE HAPPIEST AHAHA WOW ALL THE LOVE AND BAGELS FOR YOU MADILYN <3

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  28. I think you just made me fall in love.

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    1. Ok I think you just made me fall in love with you (as if I wasn't already;).

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  29. OKAY WHAT.
    FIRST OF ALL you are so lovely are you sure you're only 16 because you have such an older soul this is lovely and your blog is so lovely and wow.
    SECOND OF ALL
    I AM A LIBRARIAN TOO.
    AND THIS IS AMAZING.
    I LOVE YOUR WRITING.
    And i also love the fact that i kinda dream and think about almost this exact same scene while shelving books and such.

    we may be long lost twins!

    stay lovely!!!!!!!!!

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    1. DUDE.
      WHAT IS THIS.
      alskdjflskdfjlskdjfksd. all my compliment goals were just summarized in that sentence. have you ever thought about a career in making people feel good about themselves cause I really feel like you should consider that ???
      NO WAY. librarian dreamers unite!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is amazing. so happy.
      YAY HI TWIN. and same to you- i just went to your blog and it looks flawless (probably too excited to stalk it) xxxxxxxx

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  30. Ok, I just fell in love with this lovely story. Maybe because the female character sounded just like me? (Crooked ring, messy fingernails, flustered when around a handsome stranger, etc.) THIS GAVE ME THE FEELS!

    Oh, and that's so cool that you work in a library! I'm 16 too, so maybe I could become a librarian. It sounds like my kinda work! ��

    Lovely blog! I can't wait to read more of your posts!!! ❤️

    -Abbie C.

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    1. WOW, SO GLAD YOU CAN RELATE AND FEEL ALL THE FEELS WITH ME ;) <3 You totally should go for it!!!!! I love working at our library, and I'm sure they'd love to have you! Gah thanks so much- you're so sweet :')

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    2. Aww! *hugs* Thank you! <3 -Abbie C.

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  31. Wow, I'm in love with this vision. You painted such a lovely, vivid picture of your daydream. This is nothing short of beautiful.

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  32. This really stood out to me because I'm volunteering at a library this summer to promote childhood literacy. Your writing is so enchanting and I'm definitely following your blog. ;)
    - Sanjana
    peridotcove.blogspot.com

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    1. WHOA, Sanjana, that's awesome!!!!! We got a new volunteer at our library this week and she's so sweet! I bet they love you ^-^ AW, thank you!! Just checked yours out and 100% following it too, hehe

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  33. This is so pretty. <3 And your blog is beautiful Olivia. xx

    afreemind

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    1. THANK YOU SO MUCH :') your blog is gorgeous!!!!!!!!!! I'm a tiny bit jealous ;) Thanks for stopping by xx

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  34. oh heavens this was precious!
    as a librarian + romantic this is too much ahhhhh

    xx

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    1. oh my goodness. YOU'RE A LIBRARIAN, TOO? I don't know how I did not know this but AH. HAPPINESS. thank you times a million xoxo

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  35. *distant sobbing* like, why can't this happen in real life. please. why can't fairytales be true for my oh-so-secret-romantic heart. xD

    THIS WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVED IT TO DEATH. IT MADE ME ALL SQUEAL-Y AND HAPPY AND SLIGHTLY SAD SO GO YOU :P

    // katie grace
    a writer's faith

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    1. RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT??? hahahaha, why are my expectations set so unreasonably high (probably bc of fiction books and stuff but not gonna stop reading/writing but ok)
      THANK YOU BUNCHES. THAT MAKES ME UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY XD

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  36. I've been seeing your blog around the blogosphere for the past few months, and WOAH. Your writing is ah-maaaazing, girl! Oh my word! <3 I can't say enough how much I loved this. Seriously, you are so gifted.

    Thanks for posting this lovely poem!

    -Amanda @ Scattered Journal Pages

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    1. AHHH, AMANDA ^-^ ^-^ ^-^ THANK YOU SO MUCH HOW ARE YOU SO SWEET. <3
      No, thank YOU for posting this lovely comment! xx

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  37. Okay, I know this is really late, but I just had to comment because your writing is amazing!!!!!! *squeals* <3 <3 You describe everything so perfectly (the way I wish I could, lol). And the fact that you're a librarian is amazing as well- I volunteered at the library one summer, and it was the BEST. I'll definitely be sticking around!
    // Emily

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    1. *tries not to scream bc SO MANY OF THE NICE THINGS* THANK YOU SO MUCH, EMILY <3 dude, that's so awesome!!!! I wish I had volunteered before actually starting to work there! I've loved all the volunteers we've had this summer :') I bet they all love you ;)

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