Friday, June 2, 2017

excerpts of life

everyone keeps doing all these posts about high school and graduation and what they've learned and all this stuff, but I don't know. at the end of graduation day I wasn't thinking of everything I've learned. I was too busy taking in all the love. and it all just hit me that day. and I wrote messy in my journal late at night,
everything is so good and I'm too scared to think about it or I'll cry cause beginnings mean endings and time slips by so fast and I don't know how to love people well enough yet. what if I've lived all this time and they haven't seen Jesus yet? and I just thought, what could I ever give back- to mom and dad, my family, my friends/soulmates, my Savior, the Giver of every good and perfect gift? I mean, I guess, my life. but I guess I could start with a grateful heart, too. so, here's some memories of the week of graduation that fill me up all over again. john 1:16.


too many people crammed in a car music blasting, running to dollar general, hot air sweeping in through the open windows, watching baseball drowsy at dusk, volleyball barefoot in the sand at night.

laying in bed at night, talking about Jesus and the Bible, drinking tea, and realizing how real and alive and personal and powerful He is.

nachos and dip and ice cream and cookies and strawberries dipped in chocolate and laughter and talking with a constant background of guitar playing.

sitting in the dark with the power off, listening to good music, refusing to go to sleep, prank calls and hysterical laughter over nothing.

the way I could hear his smile over the phone at night when the stars were bright and my eyes were bleary.

writing stuff too personal to post on here but it's okay cause this poem.

eating samoas and driving unfamiliar country roads with wet hair and late sun on my bare arms, and how the sky changed to pink and purple fading to dark behind the trees, thunder rumbling complacent in the distance.

hitting up sketchy mexican restaurants pre-graduation rehearsal.

riding in the back of the truck to the baseball field with the cousins before it got too dark to see to hit.

not being able to stop smiling during the recessional because I'M DONE.

that He who promised is faithful.
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sorry I've been gone so long. I think I'm back for good now.
I love you all for sticking around. :''')

36 comments:

  1. I've missed you <3 lovely writing as per usual xx nina

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    1. I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH TOO. xxx
      thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  2. oh i love this. your adventures radiate early summer joy. congratulations on graduating!!

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    1. WOW my actual goals. you're the sweetest. thank you so much, andrea!!!!!!!!!!! <3

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  3. Oh. my goodness. the goosebumps, girl.
    ALL THE FEELZ and congrats on graduation!!
    <33

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    1. umm u r giving me all the feelz. thank you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

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  4. This is seriously so pretty and poetic. You took me to another place <3 You give off that feely summer vibe.

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    1. ok WOW THANK YOU :') that is such a compliment i cantoskdfjld

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  5. Omg this post <3 brings back so many memories. I definitely related to just that flood of love and joy in that moment--esp. the recessional. Congratulations on this [so eloquently put!] milestone and I can't wait to see you around more this summer (:
    xx
    steph

    strictlystephanie.blogspot.com

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    1. AW, THANKS, STEPH xxx you are the sweetest. can't wait to stalk your blog ;)

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  6. Your work is always such an inspiration! You have an ability to think about things most people wouldn't (referring to taking in love on graduation day) I need to learn to think more like yourself!

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    1. WHATTTTTTTTTTT. THIS IS SUCH A THOUGHTFUL AND FLATTERING COMMENT IM GONNA DIE. Thank you so much, Vanessa!!!!!!! <3 Missed you.

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  7. dannng. has anyone ever met another person who could write about driving to dollar general and eating food and going for rides and sitting in the dark and baseball and sunlight in a way that makes you feel like you just went through a wormhole into a vintage movie and everything is pure and right and as it should be?

    nope. cuz only olivia knight does this.

    i love you dude like so much

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    1. agree w this comment 100%

      Hailey
      www.haileyhudson.wordpress.com

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    2. ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. dude.
      do you even know how much I love you (and your comments)?????????????
      cause, like, it's a lot.

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    3. @hailey u r a gem
      <33333333333333333

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  8. you have a magic with words unlike anyone i have ever known.

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    1. ARE YOU KIDDING ME GRACE ANNE IM CRYING
      LEGIT SAME ABOUT YOU AND YOUR COMMENTS. GOODNESS.
      LOVE U.

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  9. This post gave me all the feels, because I CAN RELATE OHMYWORD. ♥

    Congratulations on graduating!! It feels amazing, doesn't it?!

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    1. GAHHHHHHH, thank you so much for reading and relating I can't even.
      THANKS AGAIN <3 IT FEELS SO GOOD. :')

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    1. same tbh.
      LOL thank you so much, autumn I MISSED YOU

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    2. awww my goodness i'm crying xx
      jsyk i'm saving this post for my graduation so i have it :)) YOU'RE GOOD.

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    3. UMMM IM NOT CRYING ITS JUST AN ENTIRE LOG IN MY EYE
      <3333333333333333333333333333333333 this means so much

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  11. I am SO GLAD you are back. This post was beautiful and your heart is beautiful and your blog...gahhhhh...TOO much beauty.

    -T. x

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    1. YOU SLAY ME. HAH <3 Thank you times a million!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so much love xx

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  12. AHH, I love this. Sometimes I tend to hold onto memories way too tightly. But this is such a beautiful way to capture them and move on to the next ones you will soon experience.

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    1. DUDE, I FEEL YOU SO HARD. Thank you so freaking much. :') <3

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  13. ow. and some days it feels like we are the same person because there i was watching him playing baseball and we were yelling loud and the sky was darkening but our hearts grew lighter and every day made me braver and braver
    and hey i miss(ed) you and God has been faithful and everything feels right in His arms. weep. your hands of summer. love u. glad you're back. congrats on the graduation. don't cry too much, yeah? save some tears for me next year. :') cuz i'll be crying a lot i bet.

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    1. owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwWWW. SOMETIMES I WONDER IF WE ACTUALLY ARE THE SAME???????????? loool. love love love u. UM ok yeah definitely gonna save some tears for u. still got plenty left. ;)

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  14. i just graduated so i can totally relate to this post. you are such a talented writer and i'm so glad i found your blog!

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    1. aw, thanks audrey!!!!!!!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS xx

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  15. This is my first time starting a blog and I love WRITING pls check out my blog :)

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