Monday, March 31, 2025

 


 


Grief dances

Grief dances her way
through the streets of the slum
while the women whisper— 

No shame.

Grief lingers obtrusively
in the corner of your eye 
at every family gathering—

Sprinkles distaste on all your old favorites.

Grief hounds you at home,
begs you to leave,
wishes you would stay—

Never satisfied, like a mother, with your choice.

Grief returns 
like the cowboy in a western
come to duel for the soul 
of a dusty decrepit town.

She returns 
like the shivering autumn leaves
to the dirt,
like your unrelated aunt 
showing up to visit unannounced.

Grief crashes
to the floor like a pot 
from the kitchen cabinet 
in the middle of the night.

She is a sudden summer thunderstorm.

Grief returns 
like the hair tie you lost,
the water bottle you forgot about
and don’t want to wash,
like the cilantro you left in the fridge.

She returns 
like the golden retriever
at the end of Homeward Bound—

Stubborn, relentless,
            kissing your wet, 
                            messy face.

— olivia gwyn 


Thursday, March 27, 2025

 

Lately I am tender

Lately everything
matters and hurts too much
and I feel young and tender
and jerk back from feeling
before it takes over

Lately I try to breathe 
against the hurt of the world
people are dying, wanting,
fighting, losing, losing,
and I know them all

Lately I count money
to a soundtrack of an empty room
an empty seat at someone's table
and this is all too ugly for a poem
and I hate it and I hate it
and I want it to be gone

Lately I am tender 
but some people can't afford to be

Lately I am tender
and look for gentleness in your face
and I can't always see
but your face too is tender
and it weeps for all these things

— olivia gwyn 


Saturday, February 15, 2025

Let me hold you a little while longer

 



Let me hold you a little while longer


I roll over in the middle of the night / to go pee for the third time / while our leader sleeps soundly through the night / I stumble reaching to turn the florescent light on / and worry about what kind of world / I’m bringing you into / while the most powerful man in the country / shines his fluorescent white teeth / in the name of exclusivity / The sun goes to bed early and comes up late / and my dreams are dark and / drag at my limbs to stay in bed / You kick me from the inside / and I know you are almost ready to face / the cruel world, the fluorescent, angry lights / I dream for you in the dark / gentle sunlight on your face / young grass clutched eagerly in your firm fists / toes dipped in cool clear water / and shrieks of delight from your sun dappled cheeks / One more night I whisper / and try not to cry and instead / try to think of every good thing that could ever be / and not about how I’ll never again / have you here so close to me / the illusion of safety / Let me hold you a little while longer / Let me dream for you and build / with my own two hands against the rising tide / a world more kind than home.


— olivia gwyn 


Tuesday, January 7, 2025

Mercy

  

Mercy

The sun hits me in my eyes 
on the way home from my appointment
you beside me driving home 

The sun hurts my eyes and my head 
and I snap at you and worry about
what I don’t know

You offer me pineapple out of your open hand
and I could cry with my eyes closed
against the merciless light of the sun

How easily I forget 
what I do know

How quickly I am offered 
another chance to remember 

You 
you 
you

— olivia gwyn