why do I do that?

The sun sets in the reflection of the windows 

Facing away

And I wonder what it’s like

Facing away

But I’m still here and I never 

Face that way 

Why do I do that?

Does it ever get easier

Turning away?

how do I say this

How do I say this

Without

Saying what I mean

How do I say this

Without 

Baring my heart

In a thousand 

Uncivilized pieces 

How do I say this

Without 

Running out

In the street

And screaming it

At the top of my lungs 

How do I say this 

Without 

Opening the door 

And letting you in to see 

Broken mirrors on the wall

All the crumpled letters I never sent

And the unfolded laundry from June

How do I say this

Without 

Looking a fool 

Making a fool

Of myself 

And of you

How do I say this

Without 

Risking 

Losing 

Everything

You