what i don't say

What I say:

I love you

What I don't say:

I love your beating heart 

I love that you are here,

Steady, beneath me

That your heartbeat is

A lullaby that sings me to sleep

I love that you are warm,

Solid, that it is so

Easy, an afterthought,

To have you here so safe

Beneath me

I love that you are still here,

Still mostly completely good,

And yourself and more yourself everyday

I love your beating heart

I am still trying to learn

How to say it out loud