where do I belong

There hasn’t been much to say recently

Mostly I’ve just been looking for God 

When it’s too dark to see 

And asking for answers I don’t have

Lately I’ve been noticing small gifts

And they seem so vital

Like the sun on our walls

In the morning

Through the leaves 

That weren’t there a week ago

Our library

A breeze

Strawberry season

A new pair of sweat shorts

Lately I’ve been trying to notice the good 

Alongside the bad and hold it right there—

The tension

And stare it in the eyes

And still I don’t know what to do with it

So much is wrong

And still the birds are singing right now 

And someone got married yesterday 

And twin babies were born 

And I laughed

And still it is Tuesday 

And everywhere people are dying

And the sun is shining

And where do I belong?

– olivia gwyn