I have learned to go back
I have learned to go back in time
To the pink striped sheets
Wrapped around my small warm body
The light coming in slanted
Through the blinds
I enter my body as I wake up
Slowly with a fear already
Wedged deep in my chest
It is too quiet and I know
I am too young
To be alone like this
I have learned to walk
Across the scratched wooden floors
Towards the glass front door
Bare feet crossing the muddy yard
To the gravel road
I watch my face crumple as
I round the corner and see
Their figures in the distance
The crushing relief of realizing—
I have learned to go back to this gravel road
The school bus far away
My face bleary eyed
My family walking home, towards me
The panicked beat of my heart—
I am not alone
I am not alone
I am not alone
— olivia gwyn